Future Sylar: If you want to learn how to access my ability, fix the watch. Listen to it. Like a symphony, every piece has its part, all coming together in perfect harmony. If you can understand the complexities of a watch you can understand anything - everything: cause, effect; action, reaction - how to change the future. (3x04)

Sylar: We're all at war with ourselves; that's what it means to be human. Trick is figuring out how to be on the winning side. (3x09)

Sylar: (Referring to the human brain) And how much of it do we actually use? Ten percent of it, maybe twenty. Imagine the answers we'd have with a hundred percent. Why is there evil? How many angels can dance on the head of a pin? How do we make love stay? (3x01)

Mohinder: It is man's ability to remember that sets us apart. We are the only species concerned with past. Our memories give us voice and bear witness to history, so that others might learn; so they might celebrate our triumphs and be warned of our failures.

i can't deal with people anymore.

i just want to curl up in my bed and never come out.

i want to be an adult and not have to deal with pointless high school problems about sex and homework and driving. yes, these are adult problems obviously, but i'm tired of dealing with them with the mentality of a child.

i'm just tired.

i have no motivation and i'm constantly surrounded by people who grate on me and are just a pain.

i squander my time doing nothing.

I MADE A TUMBLR

ADD ME!

i have no idea how it works or anything about tumblr, but i think i like it.

in other news, i'm on episode fourteen of Heroes Season One.
it's just as good as i remember it. PLUS COMMENTARY!

ANDDDD

the new Empires song, Bang, is fucking amazing.
like, beyond amazing. it's fucking fantastic.
i love it.

my hands are freezing!!!

ummm... i had something to write, but i can't remember now.

it rained, it poured yesterday. this weather is winter at last.

today our psychology assignment is to write what we would do if we were invisible for 24 hours. let the chaos insue. no names are involved. completely anonymous.

also, this:

IT'S A POT! MADE OF CERAMICS!
NOT ACTUALLY A SHOE!
talent. Marilyn Levine has it.

Title: Pinned Down by the Dark
Author: quote_ofthexday
Summary: Carmen realizes that although death is no longer a threat, something much darker looms within Thomas' own household.
Warnings: some blood, language, and little to no editing
Background: this story is of my own creation and features characters i have created myself. i am using this story to spontaneously rebuild my writing skills.

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

( Part Four )

Everyone in the world always has that one friend. She's the friend that everyone hates but no one is mean enough to tell her.

Well i had that friend and in a moment of complete honestly, i was the person who was mean enough to tell her. But i did it out of kindness and we were supposed to remain friends afterwards. but we haven't spoken since. and that was in August.

( FORGIVE ME, JOURNAL, FOR I HAVE SINNED )

when i'm bored i listen to music. i lurk on my friends list. i check my farm and my restaurant. i lurk on facebook. i come back to my friends list. i look at my journal, which is stupid because i post every thing on here and unless i post something unbeknownst to myself, it will not change. i admire my work. i mess with my itunes playlists. i open new internet pages and read the msn headlines that only change daily.

when i'm doing my homework, i'm bored.

i would like to maintain an A in english, but it's getting harder and harder. i used to be a great student. well sure, i was a B student in the Honors classes, but i worked hard and participated. now i'm probably an undercover C student posing as an A student. I just can't function anymore. it's unbearable. i can't write. i can't speak. i used to be this fantastic eloquent amazing person. and now i'm a 17 year old senior in high school who ends every sentence with "lol". even when speaking.

i even have problems talking to my best friend. i feel like all i do is whine. i never do anything about my problems. and i'm so fucking condescending. i feel smarter than everyone else even though i obviously am not. i repeat things over and over and then, in the subsequent sentence, complain about how i hate repetition. i'm a hypocrite and emotionally self destructive and all my friends appear to hate me.

so i procrastinate and play games on facebook that consume my life when i should be reading or doing homework or just being productive. i tell myself i'm going to come home and clean my room and make cookies. i will get a job and lose weight and paint a masterpiece and write a novel and save the world... blah blah blah. it's all lies. i will never get out of bed. i will never get to school on time. i will never get an A in high school english classes. i will never take the SAT and i will never be happy with myself.

i'm sorry if anyone had to read this.

Title: Pinned Down by the Dark
Author: quote_ofthexday
Summary: Carmen begins to understand her change and expects answer that Thomas may not be able to offer her when he is confronted by his father.
Warnings: some blood, language, and little to no editing

Part One

Part Two

( Part Three )

too amazing for words. i feel like such an incredible nerd.

UGH. the parents are FUCKING ANNOYING AS FUCK.

when you say we are cleaning the house tomorrow, i can understand we will be cleaning the house tomorrow. you don't have to tell me we are cleaning every time you see me. It's like "oh hey, you again. instead of saying hello i think i'll tell you to clean the house tomorrow"

"well fuck you too."

i'm off to watch Heroes. I'm pinning for the "Eclipse" episodes of Season Three though. hopefully i will get it next week!

i'm off to watch my Heroes Season One DVD that came in the mail today!!!!
and then i will be thinking about my ~story which has been floating around my head all day. i even told my friend i had it as a dream because i'm sick of her sex dreams with ZQ. she gets to fuck him on a couch and what do i do in my dreams? get chased through jungle gyms by eels. yes. that was my dream.

be back later...

so i'm going to split this story into parts because i think parts are more pretentious than chapters.

i will also link to previous ~parts~ in case someone is actually reading this shit.

and i will also be coming up with a title for it eventually.

EDIT: i think i have a title:
Pinned Down By the Dark
(it's from the Arctic Monkeys' song Dangerous Animals)


Title: Pinned Down by the Dark
Author: quote_ofthexday
Summary: After being hit by a car, Carmen faces a new life and Thomas must deal with the consequences of his actions. (please be a little more vague. thank you)
Warnings: some blood and little to no editing


Part One

( Part Two )

And nothing much happens in Palm Springs.

so it takes about 2 hours to get from my house to palm springs. we were driving for 4 hours.
traffic was hella bad.

when we FINALLY got to the hotel, our reservation had been cancelled.
we had to pay $1500 for a vacation to a hotel that we have a time share for.
our room should have been free.

the rooms themselves were fine.
i was staying with my sister, Natalie, and my cousin, Emma. Natalie was just as annoying as usual. Emma just as undeceive and easy going. i'm not going to get into the details, but the two banded together to make most of my last evenings and early mornings miserable. and both were miserably sick and coughing.

Thanksgiving dinner was had at a restaurant. it was good but it was nothing compared to making the meal at home and eating it with family and keeping all the leftovers.
We had some leftovers, but i cooked them with eggs for breakfast the next morning and everything stuck to the bottom of the pan.

My grandmother was with us and her increasingly annoying OCD was just as pronounced as ever.

My uncle joined us later and came up with limericks about the puzzles we were trying to solve.

the last two days, Natalie, Emma and i went to the work out room. On the last day, we went to the pool and threw rocks around and put chairs in the kiddie pool. we ended on a bored note in the middle of truth or dare/would you rather.

We also went to the mall and The Living Desert, the zoo in Palm Springs. we got to look around the animal hospital and it was actually really interesting and my love of animals and veterinary science may now be rekindled.

it took us maybe two hours to get home but it felt like ten. we stopped at Olive Garden for lunch.

THE END.

This is a warning.

It's been a long time since I've written anything besides that shitty little thing i wrote here a few weeks ago. Beware. This could get ugly.

Obviously, this is fiction. I wouldn't call it fanfiction though because the idea was purely my own. I think of it more as the plot of a movie for which actors have already been cast for the characters.

I'm already scaring myself a little.
Okay. Here we go.

EDIT: okay. nevermind. this is no where near fanfiction. but it is about vampires. no Edward Cullens i swear. just Sylar-esque vamps and some gore. i haven't edited it though, so that could get pretty scary.

( I'm not sure how to explain where I got this idea, but most of it came from Psychology. )

any criticism is welcome by the way

Dear Heroes,
i ordered seasons one through three on DVD yesterday for the same price it would be to buy one set. yes, i am very proud of myself. sixty dollars well spent. i hope.

also, i watched the last episode that will air until next year, also the last episode with Nathan, and i must say, i will miss you. I will count the days until i hear "previously, on Heroes..." again.
with the most sincerest love,
Julia.



( *wipes tears* okay, now onto the review )

also i downloaded the Star Trek audiobook which i had previously known nothing about.
i am in geek heaven.
Star Trek + ZQ's delicious velvet voice = heaven to me.
i will definitely be falling asleep to this. (and i don't care if that sounds creepy OR nerdy)

woah i almost wrote herpes instead of heroes. that's odd.

i'm so tired. i have so much stuff to post. i will work on it eventually.

Ugh. I had so much stuff to postbut forget about it

and off to palm springs i go for a weekend of eating and shopping and other ridiculous things.
hopefully all will be good / i will get my Heroes DVDs

yes, i did tell my mom i wanted them. she was pissed and told me she thought she raised me better.
1. apparently not.
2. i thought it was understood that i WANTed those DVDs more than a dumb New Moon book and some crappy makeup (and shoes that don't fit) ugh FML

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

i watched Star Trek with commentary today. it was so made of win i couldn't even handle it.
j.j. and the other guys were so awesome and all their ridiculous commentary was incredible.
it makes me want to be in movies so bad omg.
<3<3<3

It's my birthday! i'm 17~ lol i'm so young still.
it was a pretty good day, what with New Moon and all. even though i was unexpectedly sick in the middle of econ. well i have said that class makes me physically ill with boredom. i got some balloons and $50 to forever 21.
but no Heroes DVD set. BOO! that's all i really wanted. :(
(sounds selfish. but i gotta say it somewhere and i'm not about to out myself as a bitch to my parents.)

( speaking of Heroes... )

HEROESSSSS
yeah. it's monday night.


(aww omg the dog! aww omg ZQ! AWWWWW)

TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY FUCK YEAH.
I'M STILL A MINOR. UHHH... SURE.
NEW MOON AGAIN TOMORROW.
MY LIFE IS AMAZING TONIGHT!

EDIT:SYLAR KISSED ANGELA??? WHAT IS THIS SHOW EVEN???
my mind has been blown